Bear Jie says she's coming over to SG in December.
Obviously I'm going to meet her.

I can't be more ecstatic.

However.

She says she's gonna drag Ken along to meet me, too.
Not that I don't wanna meet him but.
It's gonna be majorly awkward.

I mean, it's not like I'm not ecstatic to meet him or anything.

It's just after all that's happened, it's.. weird.

After all, I was pretty much at fault.
But I didn't do some of the things.
I have no idea what on earth happened.
It just happened, and..

Apparently it's neither me, nor him.

I told Mom about this.
And she says I should clarify with him.
Oh, not my real mom, okay?
She's like, a real mother, but not mine.
Although I can surely say she's like, one of the best mothers around.

Anyways.
So I've been trying to clarify it with him.
And, everytime,
He makes it clear that he's doesn't wanna know.

I'm not blaming him or anything.
I'm blaming myself.
This is my biggest, and only, regret.

I regret not cherishing things when they were mine.

Sigh. I wonder.
I haven't talked to him in what, 2 years.
It's not like I never tried though.

Then again, it was my fault to begin with.
And, what can you expect?
I was still young. And naive.
Not that I'm not now, but at least I know better.

Between all of these, it's a total spiderweb.
I can never seem to get out of it.
But right now, I'm making the best of it.
And you know, I'm content with what I have.

It'll get fixed soon. Probably. Hopefully.
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On another note.
Like, from a.. normal nothing-to-do-with-him point of view,
It'll be interesting to meet Ken.

The market genius, he is.

As taken from Mom, he's one person who's gonna get far in life.

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Sigh. December's still a long way away.

So, the next time I'm looking forward to..
August.

Bring it, Life.
I'm ready for whatever crap you throw at me next.
And I'm taking it down.
AIN SOPH AUR!!!!!!!!!!

Okay I've been playing too much TOS 2. >_>
But still.
I'm gonna keep walking, going forward.

-Andy: Meh.
-Des: Heya Lemon!!

Ciao.
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