Sigh.
Ever realise how abstract adults can be?
Like, those between the 16-21 mark.
They are just weird.
Understandable of course, but weird in the sense that..
That makes me feel I have to weather a few more storms before I can finally understand their actions and what their thinking.
Oh sure, I can read their minds from what they do easily enough,
but that doesn't mean I understand what they do regarding it.

But then again, I was, and still am, a fool.

Still.
I can understand part of it.
Like why some people emo.
And like why, for some reason, their addicted to games.

I realised, most of the people I met in maple, are like, 16-21.
And it just made me wonder, why are they playing this bloody game, when their all old and stuffs. Destress? I think not. You get more stress playing it. Fun? How fun can it be? When there are.. bloody liars about? So, for what? Too much time to spare?

Or, for a certain person? Or, a spark which draws you to it? Or, something that tells you you're gonna find something there? Which is MY reason, but is it yours?

And then there's people like Stef who think I'm crazy for staying up so late just to play a bloody game. Yeah, I think I'm crazy too. But then there's people who've made my life more fun, and yet sometimes, they feel truer than people in real life. Except for one exception, which caused me.. a whole lot. But still, this kinda shows me how different people are, from all walks of life.

I've met the kindest person that I've ever met, the most confusing, the most irritating, the most evil, the most hilarious, the most suicidal, and lots more. Some just teach me a lesson, like that liar. Or maybe she didn't lie. But you know, it doesn't matter anymore. After what she's done. And then, people start to help fill up that hole that everyone has in their heart. Like, it starts filling up after you're born, where your family takes their places there. Then your friends.. and ultimately, the people closest to you.

Granted, most people think that people you meet online are not safe. But that's just cause you've never tried it, met people so true. And then you'll find out, hey, actually the world has all sorts of people. And then, when you meet new types of people in real life, you'll find out that you're not surprised at all. Why? Cause you've already met that type of person.

Every day,I look back, and see what a fool I've been. Some memories are painful to be relieved, but you just have to do it. Then again, I'm not the only one. I'd bet at some point of time, everyone's thought themselves to be fools too. Like, after I'd found out she lied. I guess I more or less curled up into a ball and let the darkness take over every night. Then slowly, people started filling up that gap there, inside me. And then I got better. Miraculous how some people hurt you, and how some people heal you, don't you think?

I guess I'm being really abstract too. But there are just stuffs I want to say sometimes. And let's just say I was relieving past memories and wanted to blog it. Anyways, ciao and good nights.